Am I depressed?

Okay, how do you tell the difference between depression due to chemical imbalances of the brain versus depression due to your situation in life? Hell if I know. So I increased my meds like my shrink suggested to do. At the same time, my boyfriend’s mother has become even more annoying and intrusive. I went… Continue reading Am I depressed?

Are you depressed?

Your Depression Level: 48% You seem to have mild depression. A lot of people fall into your range, and it’s quite possible you don’t need treatment. If you’ve been feeling this way for a while, you may want to seek help. Are You Depressed? Mild depression … guess it’s a good thing that my medication… Continue reading Are you depressed?

Family Binds

It seems all adults swear never to repeat the mistakes of their parents. Well, I did repeat the mistake of my father, and I don’t even have kids. My dad declares with a straight face that he never plays favorites with us kids, yet it is very plain that I am his favorite. That has… Continue reading Family Binds

Revelation8.11.2006

I am not a very nice person. Anybody who has met me in person is probably saying, “It’s about time you figured that out!” I have always known it. I am just now admitting it to myself. I am standoffish, very private, not very willing to put myself out there unless I have a defined… Continue reading Revelation8.11.2006

Hooked on a feeling

I apologize for not posting in awhile. I’ve been in an awful funk lately, letting people and circumstances get to me. Been wallowing in a private pity party, yet again. I’ve been taking my meds and seeing my therapist like I’m supposed to be doing, just as prescribed. Really can’t blame treatment for this one.… Continue reading Hooked on a feeling

Dreams

Dream interpretation fascinates me. It seems very subjective to me though. What can be more personal than your dreams? I offer up only the really weird ones, or the very obvious ones, in therapy. There are still some things that I just cannot say to anybody, even my therapist. The other night I had the… Continue reading Dreams

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I oughta be committed

Commitment. The “C” word. It strikes fear into the hearts of men and women alike. Why? It brings to mind a sort of finality. Something permanent. Closes the door on other opportunities. Loss of independence. I think it is really a fear of responsibility. What’s so bad about having someone care whether or not you… Continue reading I oughta be committed

Staring at the future

I went into psychiatry thinking that my own experiences as a psychiatric patient would be helpful. I thought that my experience would help me understand my patients better. I would be able to empathize with them. Maybe I identified too much with them. Maybe it turned out to be a detriment. I think about going… Continue reading Staring at the future

Mothers’ Day

I am in Dallas, Texas at an internet marketing conference. I feel guilty because I am nowhere near home. Actually, I feel guilty about feeling RELIEVED that I am nowhere near home for Mothers’ Day. I have gotten so good at avoiding my feelings about my mother’s death. I doubt that I have really worked… Continue reading Mothers’ Day