Strangely enough, cradling a cat in my lap has a calming effect on me. I say strangely because I did not grow up with pets in the house. In fact, I have always been afraid of animals. Never trusted what they would do. I was a bit apprehensive when my boyfriend told me that he had two dogs and three cats in his household. But I have fallen in love with every single one of them. One cat, Remy, is my favorite. She was the first to jump into my lap. She lets me hold her and pet her. Sometimes she curls up and goes to sleep. My boyfriend says he has to compete with her for my time!

One day I had Remy in my lap and I was talking to her. Silly talk. (I didn’t expect her to answer me, so no calls to my therapist, okay?) I asked her if she would be my “babydoll” now that my nephew is all grown up and doesn’t need me anymore. That’s when it hit me. Holding Remy reminds me of holding Billy when he was little. Remy jumps into my lap when I am working on the computer. I used to give Billy a pencil and a piece of paper so that he could “help me” with my homework as he sat in my lap. And I used to love holding him as a sleeping baby.

I guess it’s not just pets. It’s contact with another living being that is so calming. So comforting.

Hug someone you love today.

Medications Therapy

Sleep and Meds

I take all of my medications in the morning. For some strange reason, the earlier in the morning I take them, the better they work. In fact, I got into the habit of getting up around 5 or 6 AM, taking my meds, then going back to bed. Within an hour or so, I feel ready to get up and start the day.

One of my medications is Adderall XR. It is a stimulant that I take for attention deficit disorder. Oddly enough, I have found that I sleep better in the morning AFTER I take it. I actually feel myself drifting off to sleep, and it is a wonderful feeling. Almost peaceful. Very relaxing.

It is also when I have the strangest dreams. My time periods get mixed up. People I met in adulthood are at my childhood home, or I am with my mother in the present even though she passed away four years ago. It is also odd because I don’t dream very often.

The mind is such a weird, but wonderful place.